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Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I’m not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I’m still waiting
I’m through with doubt
There’s nothing left for me to figure out
I’ve paid a price
And I’ll keep paying
I’m not ready to make nice
I’m not ready to back down
I’m still mad as hell and
I don’t have time to go round and round and round
It’s too late to make it right
I probably wouldn’t if I could
‘Cause I’m mad as hell
Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should
I know you said
Can’t you just get over it
It turned my whole world around
And I kind of like it
I made my bed and I sleep like a baby
With no regrets and I don’t mind sayin’
It’s a sad sad story when a mother will teach her
Daughter that she ought to hate a perfect stranger
And how in the world can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That they’d write me a letter
Sayin’ that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over
I’m not ready to make nice
I’m not ready to back down
I’m still mad as hell and
I don’t have time to go round and round and round
It’s too late to make it right
I probably wouldn’t if I could
‘Cause I’m mad as hell
Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should
I’m not ready to make nice
I’m not ready to back down
I’m still mad as hell and
I don’t have time to go round and round and round
It’s too late to make it right
I probably wouldn’t if I could
‘Cause I’m mad as hell
Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should
Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I’m not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I’m still waiting
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| well, im off to sam houston this next year. it will be
interesting. i hope....meeting new people and cherishing the old
ones....
i got all A's.....sweet ass sweet
my hair is long.....its weird being so long.....yeah.....
im trying to loose weight. we will see how this goes. lol. you all know how i like food
im going to miss my boyfreinds....both of you guys. i think your
amazing...i think that we have a special threesome
relationship!.....and you guys kick my socks off! seriously
though, i really do love you. and will miss you deeply and u know u
will be comming and staying with me to have long nights of ice cream,
wine, and movies....evem though....wine and ice cream seem gross
together. whatver!!
i miss cary. its wierd.
i think ive taken relationships with people for granted. u know,
u only live once. what am i to do without crazy ass doug and his
little dance moves and poses and.....well where the hell am i gonna get
my cigs now without him....... he's the only one i can smoke my candy
cigs with!!!!!!!!! and do interpretive
dances with about framinga bushes.!!!!....and....amy....is probably the
sweetest person i have ever met. she is beautiful...and i realized this
year that she just gets more pretty every day.and her little "do
me".....im gonna miss boyfirend #1 willie's stupid ass jokes taht no
one laughs except him cus they are so lame....and then he'd always look
at me to see if i was laughing cus im an easy laugher.......and
boyfriend #2 aaron...im mean....where will i learn my knowlege of john
lennon and areosmith and phil ochs....(totally dintknow how to spell
that.) which reminds me....he and i are the bad spellers
together!......who am i gonna quote sex and the city with but
becca.......and cory is so damn funny....get him alone and
talking......they boy can talk for days....its great.............justin
cox...the artist i admire!....he totally wants to paint me
naked!....dont you justin!! ;
) who am i going to skinny
dip with!!! you know who you are.....carolyn, justin, willie, addy, and
dougly!.......ha!....and....my girl stacey...who im goingto miss
greatly....ive experienced everything with her.......i dont
know......this has been the best year....it really has....so many new
experiences.
i love all of you.
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| two people have kinda inspired me to write on here....even though one
doesnt even have one of these but he says he reads it somtimes and the
other....he says he is giving up talking on this and spilld his
guts.....
i know alot of people think the online journal thing is stupid and
blah....but its wonderful....u can say what you want....u can let
people know the real you, faults and all if you want and you dont have
to do face to face....which could also be cowarous...whatever
i havent written on here in a long ass time.....since teta which blew.....
i want to ramble....be prepared....
when i take codine im brilliant....u all should know this.
i think life will lead us in many directions and some of which youd
rather choose not to take....but if your lucky....your will end up in
brazil.........
how many times do you have to get thrown down before you have the
courage to get back up again and start over with someone
new??.............i hate that im still scarred......i hate that im
still hurting from you.........i hate that.......
u know what pisses me off??...........
i will be good...........
my skin has formed a think layer that wont let people in and im dieing inside slowly........
i would love to fly to brazil..........love it...........
y arent we all nude all the time?.,...arent clothes overrated......except shoes of course......
how delicious.
im fuckd..........people make you feel cheap.........worthless..........i need to get away.
i dont even know waht the hell im saying..........
icant even process my thoughts.......ugh.....i hate that........
im sensitve.......and u destroyd it.
there....i said it.
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| ......teta blew......i sucked.....its a long story and im sure you will hear it......
i am highly lookn at university of arizona, sam houston, and oklahoma
state............and got called back for themand a few others...
i suck......i fucking suckd you guys but thank you all who wished me well.....i faild u im afraid.
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| i really need to cool it.....im so stressed out....im auditioning for
teta and there will bea bout 50 to 60 schools from what rambo
said.....im so nervous....im just stressing out about it so much...
i am feeling....honelsty i have no idea...i have so much on my mind lately....so much....
cary leaves the 9th of february....im just warning my freinds now....caution: jamy will be a complete wreck..
no no nannette is going.....umh....well.....jerry is loving my
character so far....not htat its hard...i dontknow....he likes it
though and is giving me nothing but positive feedback which makes me
feel good.....plus i have the opening number of the show...how cook is
that!!!!.....wow...i cant type.....i meant cool....how cool is
that.....but it doesnt work now becus i just clearly demonstrated how
not cool i am....lol.....o well u love me!!
wish me luck this weekend
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